While I'm Waiting

I woke up this morning with the line "While I'm waiting" going over and over again in my head.  I couldn't even remember where I knew the song from or any of the other lines.  Had no idea why it was in my head!  After I got the kids on the bus I sat down to have some alone time with God.  I spent some time just being quietly in His presence!  Very little verbal communication, just resting in His presence!  These words were still in my head!

After spending some time in my Bible, I got my journal out to see if I had anything I wanted to write down.  I wasn't hearing anything so I decided to glance back in my journal.  I like to look back and see what I've been hearing sometimes.  Well just a few days ago I had written these thoughts and then what I felt the Lord was saying in response and suddenly I understood why this song had been in my head!  I had forgotten I had even journaled this!  Below is what I had written.

Waiting, waiting, waiting.....can be so hard!  But in that waiting comes strength.  In that waiting comes perseverance.  In that waiting comes maturity.  In that waiting comes greater faith.  In that waiting comes pruning.  I so often feel like I'm in a holding pattern!  I feel like God has been saying wait to me for so long that some days I feel like it's the only word in His vocabulary!  I feel like I've been circling waiting for my turn to land, often times feeling like I'm doing nothing but going in those circles!  But, I realize that I'm not in a holding pattern, I'm in training!  I'm being prepared!  But, sometimes training is hard!  It can seem endless!  It can be exhausting!  It can feel like you're not getting anywhere!  It can seem like you're going one step forward and two steps back!  Some days quite frankly you want to throw in the towel!  As hard as training is, it is even harder when you aren't totally sure what you are training for!

Lord, forgive me for grumbling about waiting!  Help me to look for the opportunities within the waiting instead of focusing on the hard parts!

His reply:

My daughter, can you just trust me?  Am I enough for you?  Do you need a great purpose?  Do you need great accomplishments?  Is my relationship with you enough?  Not a relationship to just keep to yourself, but a filling of you by Me that spills out on to the people you are with!  Allowing me to touch people through you as you go throughout your day!  You may not even know it happened!  It might just be you carrying my presence into a room and shifting the atmosphere but you not even knowing it happened!  Just walk with me each day!  That's all you need to do!  Live in my presence!  Be a conduit through which I can flow!  It doesn't need to be big things, it just needs to be obedience!

So, after I read that I thought I need to look up this song!  So I looked it up on You Tube and listened!  Exactly what God was already telling me!  Focus on worship and obedience!  Be filled with me and move ahead in confidence!  Waiting doesn't mean stop!  It simply means there's more!  Honestly, we will always be waiting!  As we are given one assignment, we are waiting on the next!  As we are given one piece of the puzzle, we are waiting on the next!  As we are filled more with God's presence we are waiting on more!  We will never be done waiting until we reach heaven where we are forever in His glorious presence at it's fullest capacity!  Sometimes we are in periods of time where we feel like all we are doing is waiting and there feels like there is no action!  During those times, we need to focus on simply going deeper in our walk with Him and daily walking in obedience!  Things are happening through us, we just don't always see it!  It's all part of His plan and His purpose!  He knows exactly what He is doing, we just need to trust Him!